-Take Me Back Inside-

2010-08-20T01:51:00.001+08:00

I wish upon the star.

Wishing that everything will resume to normal.

Thats including you.

2009-12-18T21:15:00.002+08:00

Went for jog eventually .
Din really do much today.. Stay home and rot!
Dunno why recently very tired. Don feel like moving around!
Lazing Lazing Lazing around... round round round!
Tml working fulll!
So long din see baby le. Miss her real alot!
BABY!!!! On the 24th !!!! Lets watch chipmunk ok???

2009-12-18T14:31:00.002+08:00

Was suppose to go for a jog! But the weather isnt very good for it today.
Gosh...Have to trim back! Keep fittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt not fatttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!
Have to stay at hm... Bored, rot, die! =(

2009-12-03T21:34:00.001+08:00

I wish that I could give you everything
I wish that I could buy you diamond rings
I wish that I could fly around the world
Baby won't you won´t you be my girl
I wish that you would let me make your dreams come true yeah
cause you now I do you right

Girl you gotta love me gotta understand
The only one I need
I just wanna be your man
I wanna hold you close and give you what you need
Girl you gotta love me

Everything about you is so beautiful
Your body mind and soul
You're everything I ever wanted
When I met you I lose control

You're my everything <3

2009-12-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

2009-11-18T11:34:00.000+08:00

Gemokk baby!!

2009-11-12T14:49:00.002+08:00

Supposingly i have to blog on tues ?
Haha! A promise . But i really had no time.
=(
Tues had my lesson. Gosh, totally forgot how to do vertical parking!
Lucky thing that im still stable on the road. But went off to 80 instead. Got scolded so yeah.
Have to rush my Poster presntation. And alot alot of stuff to do.
Working schedule become more and more. Supposingly to work only weekends, but now due to short of staff, have to work on weekdays still.
Sorry baby, don have much time for you. =(
Anw, Happy 3rd mth!! =)

2009-10-29T13:05:00.002+08:00

What is afterlife for human being?

Ever wonder how will it be like if some one is dead?

Where will this human being go and what would he/she do?

2009-10-24T00:07:00.002+08:00

I just love this photo.. Which til now i couldnt explain why! Haha!
Baby don kill me when you sees this alright ?

2009-10-20T18:20:00.002+08:00

Memories =D

Hi~

Im suppose to do my Reflection journal now.

Kinda not in a mood to do. Reason : nil.

Went for blood donation for today. =)

Third time in my life! *Proud*

Save 9 lives. One bag of blood saves 3 lives.

The nurse isnt very gentle to me. Apparently the nurse injected wrongly, i was being injected twice. Doesnt want to tell baby though ~ But i guess she can see from here?

No worries alright. Though it's kinda pain, but i can still endure. Fit and strong still.

Just dont bully me alright?

Shoo...to my rj. ~!

2009-10-19T19:55:00.001+08:00

alright~ I do have a naughty gf!
and I LOVE HER ALOT!

right from the bottom of my heart <3

babyDayarocks!

2009-10-19T19:53:00.003+08:00

That was by nur hidayah yusoff.
Rite. My gf is so naughty!
Hhaha! But is true that she accompanied me.
and talking to her best friend at the same time.

hahh. going for my car prac later. tired. arghh!

yayy

2009-10-19T19:51:00.000+08:00

I love my gf a lot!

2009-10-19T19:47:00.002+08:00

Ok...Im here at orchard central Coffee bean.
LOl. my gf is talking on the phone with her best friend.
and accompanying me do my rj. so sweet right?

2009-10-16T23:17:00.004+08:00

Already been donkey years since i updated...Shall give some pictures to brighten it up! =D

Mememememmemememe!
small baby! hahah!

This is what happen when 2 retards meet together.

PP finally being approved, able to start on my poster presentation already! =D

School work really stressing me up.

Saying bye bye to java ,but now gonna say hi to web application!

IM DYING OF DOING CODING!!!!

troublemaker

2009-09-25T22:53:00.002+08:00

What the hell am i doing now?
Or maybe i shouldnt have say those stuff and to even think of it.
It's totally a mistake i guess? The worst mistake i ever made. To make you tear again.
What a fool. Sigh.
Im sorry for what i've say.
Yes, things isnt going smoothly now. I believe determination will make it change for the better?
You agree with that?
Yes, everything that had gone through was tough. The journey for life, is even tougher.
Can you take it?
Both of us is at the losing end, reason : We still know what do we really want/need.
Yes, i'm very weak now, very very weak to even decide what's for me or for the better.
To choose the right way and not wrong.
But what is a correct decision suppose to be?
Will it turn out that from bad to worse?
I pray not.

Im sorry baby. You know that i still need you badly. Please don go. I said those stuff out of foolishness. Stay by me, will you? We still have alot of dreams to continue.

2009-09-24T23:28:00.002+08:00

Things isnt going smoothly for me.
Firstly is my traffic police test. Im still not sure should i book the test date which is on nov. MId of nov i guess? Will it be too early? Do i have enough time for it? And money problem at the same time. Sigh. Who willing to help me?

Secondly, my life. Messed up.
Maybe i really did change. No longer confidence in myself. Afraid of losing anyone around me. You know who you are.
Now! I really need you by my side. Don't stay away, i need you.
Just stand by me. Thats all i need.
No matter how strong one can be, ones will still be tired. Tired of thinking and everything else. Ones needs a support, a support from the one that ones needed.
Not everyone can do it. It will only the one would be.

No words can describe how i feel now i guess? Reason why i dont even know what am i doing, or what i want.

W-H-Y... Three letters to form a word, but tons of explainations and reasoning for it.

Sushi tei D&D

2009-09-24T20:37:00.007+08:00

Boss Man! Model selection.

Yee ling..

Yammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Sengggggggggg

Pei ling... She got chubby cheeks ~ Tsk tsk.

Party Time~! You spin my head right round right round...

Yang kor... hehe~

Mr Yan B..

Kooi xiao xin... Pretty lady ~ Hehe!

She can nvr smile....gosh .

Owen phang!

Good buddy !!! Ah Fan~

Ok..I know i look damn fair here. Gay~ hahah!

Sushi tei dnd~~!!!

2009-09-10T22:54:00.001+08:00

Hmm...blogger is really god damn sickening..

I still cnt upload my photos ..

2009-08-26T22:34:00.002+08:00

I CNT POST PHOTOS !
ANGRY !
STH IS WRONG WITH MY COOKIE!!!

2009-08-06T14:54:00.001+08:00

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night

you make me wanna hold you till the morning light

you make me wanna love

you make me wanna fall

you make me wanna surrender my soul

I know this is a feeling thatI just can't fight

you're the first and last thing on my mind

you make me wanna love

you make me wanna fall

you make me wanna surrender my soul

My thoughts : I cn have you by my side?

Basketball day

2009-08-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah, finish a ball game today!
Nice! Has been donkey years since i last played!
Dunno what happen to my arms eh, got few scratches after the game. =/
After bb, went to slack at mac with ziyang and derrick !
Oh man ,they can be gossip buddies! Hahhaha!
Lucky the 3 of us got common topic~ =D
Kinda tired and restless after the game. Feel like slping now.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....Still got rj though! =/
Siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
I wanna watch G.I.JOE! Who wanna go watch wif me?
Waiting for fireworks night! <3

me

2009-08-01T00:05:00.003+08:00

Hmmm...blog dying soon? Or already dead? =/
Been busy with alot of stuff recently.
My driving , school and PP. Sigh!

Hope to get my licence in sept. Daddy has promised me to get one car for me after i pass. But i wish to take motorcycle. More thrilling. Tsk tsk.
Went for prac ytd. Finally ,no minor accident anymore. Just a almost one. Stupid van , drove out without signalling. Managed to react in time, otherwise i won be here blogging.
Ha! Finish stage one. Left 3 more!
Go Go Go! =D

School is ending soon! Left 2 more weeks. Ut3 is here!
Gosh! Damn nervous. Gonna score high this time round. At least 3.5 pls?
PP- started halfway. Dunnoe how to continue.
Restless, tired, moody.
No feel of doing any stuff.

Idk what's good for current situation now. Im confused and lost. Totally got no direction. Maybe you re right. Im not my usual self anymore. I don have the confidence anymore. Im not the one that you know from the start. Or this is my trueself ? Sigh.
No direction of light. I cant seem to find the things i really wan , that i really wish for.
Things isnt going on my way. I don blame it. I could only blame myself. Because i choose this way. I choose things to end up in this way that make every one upset. Nothing but just tears flowing down the stream.

My thoughts : I din got it all wrong. Im still here.

2009-07-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

Recently, i saw a hot guy in school! Real hot! But in terms of girl hot!
Understand ? yes ? no ?
He's a shemale.... Yeah! Firstly i saw his back and butt.. Damn firm ok !
His legs is totally like a female one la! Sexy pls! Wearing legging and boots can!
So darn jealous of his figure lor! Totally like a woman! Faggot!

Ms NurHidayahYusoff bought me a shirt! Tsk tsk!
The one that i tried at other time! Gosh! She still remember my size! =D
Happy!!! =D
Thanks! =)))))))
Millions of smileys !

Watching Boxing now! Blog tml! =D

Satisfed

2009-07-04T23:56:00.002+08:00

Yayness!! I gotten my perfume! My bag! And heels of cus~
Hmmm....Nt to be shocking eh~ Wat to do, got dinner to attend! 3 !!! =(
Schedule is damn tight for me nowadays...
Have to go for my practicals ,have to go heaven's loft, have to go sushi tei....
Hmmm....UTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Argh~ busy busy busy!!!! And still got pp to complete!!! I haven even start!!!
Gosh~ DIE LE LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=((((((((((((

Today~ Working full shift at sushi tei.
Doing runner ! Gosh man! Me and justine~ Two part-timers leh!
Though i work longer than her, but then i only did runner for three times.
DAMN it man! i jammed orders ! But lucky thing is that kitchen staffs helped me! Tsk tsk!
Lucky me ! =D
at night, not as busy at afternoon, but still very busy! Hahaha!
Afternoon - jammed , Night - no jammed!
Apparently , me and justine able to survive without getting another person to help!!!
HAPPY LA! Good job man! Hahahahahha!
But i fall on the floor twice, sprain my ankle and wrist! =(((
Pain!
Lucky thing, tml no need to work!
Im darn tired.....Energy level running real low...
Gonna rest ....Tooodoooos ~~

Cause you're hot and you're cold

You're yes and you're no

You're in and you're out

You're up and you're down

2009-07-02T21:22:00.004+08:00

Hmmm...Went to school as per usual. Feel weird, din know whats the reason?
Victoria came to find me today. Kinda strange when i first saw her.
It has been donkey years since i last met her.
Have a chit chat and so, send her off. =D
Met family to have dinner with them.
Then sent mei mei to work. Me and mama went to amk hub to get my stuff, due to upcoming wedding dinner and sushi tei's d&d. =DDDD
Off to hm after that...Couldnt get my things! So upset.
Left hm empty handed. SADNESS!!!
Nvm...gonna get all my stuff by tml! =D
Perfume! Bag! Shirts! Pants! Shoes! FEDORA!!!!!! Tsk tsk!

My New Hairdo! COLOUR CANNOT SEE!!!!

OLIE's ART PIECE WINSTONS's ART PIECE

Which is nicer ???? =DDD

Hardships

2009-07-01T15:55:00.006+08:00

Now that i got problems to upload my photos.

Stupid blogger.

Caught a movie recently, TRANSFORMERS!

Seriously, it's damn nice. Highly recommended!!! =D

So true that in order to get the things that ones wanted, we have to earn it throught hardships and unlimited sacrifices.

Heartbroken, What is it ?

You've lost the man of your dreams, the girl of a lifetime or someone else who you loved dearly. Maybe that one girl who you never had the guts to ask out has decided to date a new man, or even get married.

Whatever the cause, you feel like crap. Maybe you're just disappointed. On the other hand, you might be suffering from a broken heart. But what exactly is a broken heart?

Is it just a feeling, or is it really a medical condition?

Common Symptoms

--- Tiredness, lack of interest getting up in the morning and doing something
--- Feelings of hopelessness; "I'll never find another man like him", "She was the only girl for me"
--- Loss of appetite, not being able to eat when you're hungry, sore stomach
--- Hit to self-esteem; "I must be ugly or he wouldn't have dumped me", "Why aren't I good enough to keep anyone?"
--- Can't sleep, trouble staying asleep
--- Lack of interest in anything, no interest in the opposite sex

Does anyone have such those symptom?

Recently, i do. I don feel like sleeping, having troubles of getting back to sleep.

Reason why, i din figure out how should things be done as it's getting real complicated. Even my surrounding people feels that. There's nth on, but it's just so complicated. No one knows why, even myself.

Does avoiding even helps? It just helps by hurting myself even more perhaps? What should be done then? No one knows either do i.

To you : Believe me once, nothing is impossible. It just both to make it possible. I know things are tougher now, cus no one knows what to do, right? Just nature takes it course, would it be alright?

And you're like a suger bomb which no harms will come.

2009-06-28T23:02:00.003+08:00

What's Reality?

Reality, in everyday usage, means "the state of things as they actually exist".
The term reality, in its widest sense, includes everything that is, whether or not it is observable or comprehensible.
Reality in this sense includes being and sometimes is considered to include nothingness, where existence is often restricted to being (compare with nature).

Phenomenological reality ------ In which is on a much broader and more subjective level the private experiences, curiosity, inquiry, and selectivity involved in the personal interpretation of an event shapes reality as seen by one and only one individual.

It is a form of reality might be common to others as well, but at times could also be so unique to oneself as to be never experienced or agreed upon by anyone else.

So what is truth then ? There's no definition that everyone agrees on.

What's the real reality and truth then? Which is which ?

2009-06-28T21:55:00.001+08:00

Things isnt going on my way.
Troubled mind i got.

What are the things i could do to make things better?
This really sucks.

2009-06-18T19:04:00.003+08:00

10th june, wed

Woke up at 7.22 ytd...GOSH! Was late for my test. Went there through cab, realised that i booked the wrong slot. Darn angry of myself...=((
Wasted money on cab and the slots that i booked...Rebooked for night one. =(
Went to work after that, my job ish not a server...Im a gardener....Gosh!
Watering plants, cut their leaves...Damn!
After all wasnt so bad, cus like this i got paid 12 plus ? lols
Time passes fast at work, after work...dinner ! Ayam petyet..*i guess i spell wrongly*
Went back to bbdc again to get my test done...Not successful...FAIL! =((
Booked on fri! =)

11th, thur
Mummy's off day...din really spent alot of tym with her.
Reason becus i was really damn tired...After ut mah, no choice..Got to rest alot alot.
Mugging mugging mugging...School plus driving ....Darn tiring! =(

12th, fri
Late for school... =(
But i passed !!! Mean i can officially go for my ftt this coming wed!
Then then nearest date i can get my tp ish AUG! =))))
*aim - sept to get my licence*
Hopefully i can do it!!!! =DDD
UT....Gosh, darn nice...lucky isnt that hard...Marks are given away free.
Just aim for a B thats all ....PLS! =)

My thoughts : Knowing that it will be hard.. But i will still wait for a yes from you. <3

Posts

2009-06-09T14:22:00.004+08:00

A dinner at east coast with my family! =D
Eat untill darn full pls....And which ish the day i got the FREAKING 300BUCKS FINE AT THERE! Darn expensive dinner pls....Spolit ~ =(((((

Before haircut....After being cut....Regret ...=(
Look darn kiddish now.. =(((((((

A outing with my cousin, weixuan and aly =)
Movie - Terminator! That movie ish darn exciting pls. Hahhahah!
I got scared by the sound effect...Irritating.
But not bad though, better than horseman....at least this have ending.
After movie, ben and jerrys! =)
Went to outback restaurant to have dinner. Can't really finish due to very big portion.
Esplanade after that! =)
Went home.

Alright, k-boxing with bee hoon and val! Fun Fun Fun....They got real nice voice! =)

Impressed! hahahaha! *claps claps*

Hmm....so wierd eh, my voice really become more and more kiddish, same for my looks! =(((

*Emo* Don like....

After k-boxing....met junhao and aly, went to food court to had dinner.

Din eat, cus not hungry.

Chjimes ! God, that freaking pub, i swear it's my 1st tym there and fucking last tym. Shit place

Hmm....got tipsy abit...But still alright.

Sweet night! <3
Marina barrage! =D

My thoughts : Whats worthy? Whats not?

2009-05-27T19:47:00.002+08:00

God! Alr one week din blog? Yea....busy..too busy.
Lets see, some updates :

Last friday, 22nd...
Went to seoul garden to have dinner. Oh yeah and causeway point was on fire!!! God!
Level 5 was on fire! Im having my dinner at level 4.
No choice, everyone have to get out of the shopping centre. And of cus must refund us mah.
But we used nets to pay, only next visit then will be free. So idiot, sae what nets cannot be refund, bullshit! =(
Nvm then, so went hm....swimming and basketball and slp! =)

Sat, 23rd...
Went to peck's hoon church to attend some band concert. Apparently, there's alot of teenagers there man. God, got kids too....=/
Val came at 3.30, lucky thing that she din fly my kite, otherwise i will hate her for life. Tsk tsk!
Concert was not bad, i did enjoy!
Know alot of new ppl ,darn friendly pls...AND AND I SAW MR RAEJUNG!
HAHAHHAH! HAPPY !!!! =)))

Sun, 24th....
Went to work as usual! Sigh, people are so fake.
Wonder what for...Thomas ish leaving on the 6th, transfering to paragon.
Though i knw that he ish not a good management but he ish a very fun manager. I enjoy tokin anf playing wif him. And now he ish leaving. =((((

Mon, 25th...
Went to school!!!! =))) Fun fun! though java, but sth that cn make me smile! Hahhah!
I got a fun class! Back dude! After my e3 7j, i felt so boring...class ish darn darn quiet...boring!
hmm....Went to catch a movie, night at the museum 2, damn funny pls! =)

Tues, 26th...
Same, school day...yeah ...life ish that boring for me.. School and work and school.
Sigh...The same feeling comes back again! Doesnt feel right.
Not a good sign too me, cus sth ish goin to happen.
Suppose to have a pp talk to attend. But i din went ,suddenly don have the feel of doing stuff and handling stuff that i cnt.
So went to the beach to cool myself down. Think through, what ish happening myself and all the stuff that surrounds me.
Idk what to do .....but i know i cnt run away from it. I know there'll be more coming.
Went to my practical after tat.
Goddddddddddddddddd.......................
I HIT ON KERBS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SIGH ! HATE IT HATE IT!
Suppose to go out to the main road today lor, but i don have pdl! =(((
So sad.
Hmm....after that went hm wif ming fan! And ass.....i got a blueblack from u! Bloody hell! =(((
PAIN! =(((

TODAY! 27th may!
Went to donate blood!!!!! =)))))
Did a good deed. Met val and beehoon in the morning, had breakfast then proceed to rp.
GOD! ONLY ME that cn donate blood! LOLS
Beehoon too weak, blood pressure too low....while val...the nurse cnt find her vein...Haha!
So left me. Oh yeah ...there's this random girl, here name ish kaya.
Crazy one cn.....she cried wen the nurse poke the needle to my arm.
Im like wth plssss....ish my arm eh...not urs...why re u crying...Crazy.
The nurse tot she was my friend...DIAO!
After blood donation, each of us went separate ways..
I headed to bbdc to get my pdl! Oh oh oh! =))))
Then i got my hair cutttttttttttttttttttt
DARN..i look kiddishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
=(((((((((((((((((
Nvm...will grow back.... =)

My thoughts : I don noe what am i suppose to sae.

2009-05-20T21:22:00.002+08:00

Working from 10am to 7pm today ,thought tiring, but if no work = no money.
Decided, today will be the last day at ofc.
To be recapped, gf asked me to go interview at her outlet, due to that they need staffs. I went, abang interviewed me. Kinda scared though, cus he ish big in size and he got the stern face.
Soon after that, i got in to ofc.
Abang, jm, alan, iz, ravi, ram, christ, mala, praba, shihui, raja, faiz, iskandar, hasanah and of cus my baby girl. =)
These are the people that make my day at ofc happy at all times, having fun, bullying each other, to settle my quarrels wif my baby girl.
But now, everytink have changed. Things are different.
Ofc used to a place where consist of laughters, but now, more of bootlicker, back-stabbers.
Sigh, not my place anymore. Though, still miss. But just sick of everything.
Forget it, i just live my own life.
Follow the flow ~~~~~ =D
Smile everyday.
Target - Take my licence by sept ! =D

2009-05-14T23:34:00.001+08:00

Pass my bbt lor! Like finally pls! hhahaha!
Once and for all! =) Smart kiddy! =p
Hmm..booked ftt le...
NOw i cn start to drive! Voorm! Daddy refuse to lend me his car.! =(
Nvm...it's ok! Wait for aug then! =(

My thoughts : waiting for u to come back to me.

2009-05-11T01:13:00.000+08:00

STUPID PIG! ASS! HAHAHHAHAH!

It's over

2009-05-06T00:58:00.002+08:00

It's really over. This time round is really over, everything is over.
Im left with nothing now.
Things was so perfect before, i have the best moment with you.

Because of you, my life turns around
Because of you, every small little thing can make me happy easily.
Because of you, i smile every moment.
Because of you, my heart feels warm.
Because of you, my heart continue knowing how to love.
Because of you, i learn how to love.

I sleep with you and wake with you
And yet you are not there anymore;
I fill my arms with thoughts of you
And press the common air.

The eyes are gazing upon mine
When thing is out of sight;
My lips are always touching thine

At morning, noon, and night.
I think and speak of other things
To keep my mind at rest
But still to the my memory clings
Like love that you gave
I hide it from the world's wide eye
And thinking that speaking contrary helps,

But soft the wind comes from the sky
And whispers tales of Mary.
The night wind whispers in my ear,
The moon shines on my face;
The burden still of chilling fear I find in every place.
The breeze is whispering in the bush,
The leaves fall from the tree;
All sighing on and will not hush.

And yes, im all alone now. Still alive in this world without anything but myself.
Idk what am i suppose to do now.
I feel pain that i nvr felt it before.
The confusion that made my mind goes crazy.
The fear that point me right in to my feet.
Yes, i lost everything. Including my confidence and guts.
I changed, i know that.
I changed into a person where no one understand why or what happen.
Change into a better? I doubt so.
Cause i don even know or understand myself anymore.
No one knows.

My thoughts : I will still love you, no matter what happen.

2009-04-28T22:16:00.001+08:00

FINALLY PASS!!!!!!!!

Waiting for 13th May.......

2009-04-21T23:01:00.002+08:00

Sigh. Don't feel good.
Bad feeling. Don't know why?
Not picking up calls again. Trying to stop myself thinking.
Contacts stopped. Phones stopped. Msn stopped. Lost.
I don't know what to do.
I'm confused.
Nothing brightens me up.
Forcing to make every smile that i have to.
Trying to be nice.
Am i being myself?
Feel cuts on my body.
Blood streaming down to my feet.
Cold air blows.
All alone.
Feeling cold.
Helpless.
I done what i've done.
Still things doesn't go on track.
Am i the one in fault?
Let me know pls.

My thoughts : I want to spend the 3 years, 4 years, 5 years together.

BABIES

2009-04-16T02:44:00.002+08:00

2009-04-15T00:18:00.002+08:00

Back from jogging! =)
It has been a long time since i last jogged. But what to do, some one complain i become fatter and fatter. So i have to do sth about it! =(

Guess what date ish today! 150409! Hehhehe! 11th mth! Man, time really flies very fast!
Pain, hardships, sufferings etc...
We've gone through all...
But i believe there's more coming up.
Like you say, our story isnt like the fairytales and we're not perfect.
Times may pass, it's the matter of how we spent it together.

It is this word that brings us together. Love.

My love is like a song
That goes on and on forever

My love is like a prisoner
It's to you that I surrender.

It is like a lump of gold.
Hard to get, and hard to hold.
Of all the girls I've ever met,
You're the one I can't forget.
I do believe that God above,
Created you for me to love.
He chose you from all the rest,
Because he knew I would love you best.

Honey, believe me!
I will love you when im happy and even when im sad
I will love you when im good or when im so bad.
I will love you when i look good or even when i look plain.
I will love you when im feeling very good or even im in a foul mood.

Honey,
I will love you always, in the rain or in the shining sun.
I will love you always after all the say and done.
Baby, you know i will always love you no matter what happen.

Baby girl,
To love is to help and encourage
With smiles and sincere words of praise
To take time to share
To listen and care
In tender, affectionate ways.
Baby, all of my time is belong to yours. i will care for you in love ways.
For all that i care ish you.

Sweetest honey,
To love is to make special memories
of moments you love to recall
of all the good things
that sharing life brings
love is the greatest of all.

You gave me hope when im down.
You light up my life when it turn grey.
Memories you gave is curved inside my heart.
The love you gave is the greatest of all.

There is a dime a dozen...
Then there is one in a million...
baby, you are once in a lifetime.

I love you baby girl. Happy 11mth!

My thoughts :
Love is like a mountain,
hard to climb,
but once you get to the top.
The view is beautiful.
And you're the beautiful one.

p.s : To potato aka mr nasri. Hey hey! I was just joking with you. I didnt break up with daya la. Just play a joke with you. Dont be too sad alright. Mac breakfast on me then! =) Hahahah!

2009-04-14T15:10:00.002+08:00

Suppose to go zoo ytd, but my silly baby was so slow that she delay untill 1plus. Too late for zoo.
Girls~~~~Hahahahaha!
But still, we went to catch a movie - "Fast and Furious 4" at the cathay. Then went to MINT! Yeah, toy museum! Nice lor, toys that re super old and valuable man!
Guess how much the price will be, US thousand plus pls!
Oh man! Just for a toy leh.....worth US thousand dollar plus...LOL! Shall dig out all my old toys already! Hahahaha!
Was fun yeah, saw alot of toys that nvr see before. And there's beatles!!!! Wahahah! So cute lor...
And there's matchbox cars...so tiny!
After that went to Holland V's coffee club to have our dinner. Hmm...Baby's favourite, garlic prawn pasta then chicken wings and calamari. =D
After diinner, of cause dessert la! Hahah!
Hmmm.....ICE CREAM! Already been ages since i had ice cream! Cold rock ice cream!
Baby was fascinated by that ice cream. Cus they chopped ice creams! Hahahha!
So cute of her when she watches them chopped ice cream. Tsk!
Cabbed home.
I wanted to take bus home after sending baby home, but she insist to send me back to bus stop! LOL! How cute can she be rite?
Her mum came down! Hahahha! Ooo...papa was home before her, thereby she only can send me back halfway then after that she has to go home.
Now ish 4.30 i guess she still slping! Hahahah!
Kinda piggy!
I Miss MY Piggy Girl! =)

Sushi tei

2009-04-12T23:46:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im totally worn out pls....Damn shag! ****! My feets ish damn freaking pain and restless. =(((
Tampines one ish open now, and im working there ish sushi tei eh, not coffee club. Wtf pls.
So many ppl, like idiot sia. Singaporean so typical, new shopping mall just open then all rush to go there shop!
Sales for these 3 days ish like HIGH pls. Fri-20 plus k. Sat- 18k. Sun-17k.
Like wth pls. Work like shit can, keep got ppl coming in and in.
The queue was like long can. Ppl go untill the next door...hahha!
But still was fun, new enivorment i guess? New improvement, new people, new change!

Oh yeah, tml mc for ofc! Wahahahha! Cus i wanna go zoo wif my fat baby! =))
Zoo and night safari!!!!
Long tym din go le....take it as our 11th anni k? Hahhahah! Cus it's just 2days before.
Go visit your cousin, wifey! Hahha!

My thoughts : Kindness is sth that blind can see and deaf can hear. =D

Baby

2009-04-09T22:18:00.003+08:00

Hmmm.....School reopening soon. Zzzzzzzzzz!
Not very excited. Reason why different class from my old classmates, different class from baby.
But lucky thing ish that baby ish just a level above me. Ha! Take less than 5 mins to meet each other. Thats what she hope for. LOL. 4 days per week, one offday, ish it good or bad ? LOL!
Right, next year will be year 2. No idea how will it goes, but doesnt have good feeling about it. Reason why, it seems that there's alot of things to do. Have to prepare for PP. Sian!

Today ish family day! So as usual went to eat together. I had lamb chop. Nice! Hahaha! Er...then went to amk hub to buy sis's durian thingy. Hmm...taste not too bad. But i dont really fancy durian so yeah. =/ Went hm, to get some things from mama. Then mama send me to the bus stop....So sweet of her. <3>

Next week, last week to play....So me and baby will play for the whole week! Baby, get ready alright? Heheh! Zoo, night safari, bird park, science centre, snow city, ice skating and many many more!!! Excited or not ? Heheh! Im!!!! =)
Baby working now, miss her so so so so much. Take care when im not wif you alright?

My thoughts :

Baby you know that I miss you,
I wanna get with you tonight
But I cannot baby girl and that's the issue
Girl you know I miss you,
I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now so baby kiss me thru the phone,
I'll see you later on

2009-04-07T11:50:00.003+08:00

I really don understand why things had become like this.
I really wish hard...hard enough that things will get better than before.
Get good in every ways. Hopefully?
Do u like the present that i got for you? Hope so.
Although it's not wooden but part of it ish, so do u still accept it?
Thing seems to be better now, but how long will this continue, idk.
Hopefully it can last. *pray real hard*

Worked 3pm-3am today. Kinda tired, legs hurt. 1st tym that i feel aching after standing for so long.
Good baby, waited for me until 3am then go back together. Awwwww~ So sweet of her.
P.s. Thats why i love her so so so much.

Tried new menu dishs, sucks like hell pls. I don like. I dont understand why they like it so much. Disgusted. Tsk tsk!

When I see you
I run out of words to say
I wouldn't leave you
Cause you're that type of girl to make me stay.

My thoughts : Im waiting for the one year to come. Thank honey for everytink.

2009-04-07T01:06:00.002+08:00

Worked today. Sth not very nice happen. As when i abt to reach workplace, baby called me asked me where am i? I sae centrepoint, she asked me to come at 7 instead of now, but i ask her to wait for me and see whats ish the problem there. It seems that she start work at 7pm but me at 12pm. I asked her to go ahead wif work, but she dont want. Again, end up quarreling.
Sigh. I hate this part.

I hate quarrels.

You said that i nvr care abt you.
You said that i cnt tok to you gently.
You said that i cnt smile when i see you.
You said i react in a manner that makes you feel cold towards me.
You said that you are scared of me.
You said that i made you feel nth but pain.
You said that i made you feel like your not my gf but just a random person.

It really hurts alot when i received your msg.
I really don noe how to approach you now. I feel like a total stranger.
Don noe how to break a conversation with you.
Even if i talk to you now, ish just like how we 1st met, totally anew.
I don dare to approach you cus idk how to.
I don dare to talk to you cus i don noe will i make you cry again or run away from me.
I don noe what you re thinking.
I don noe how you want me to do.
I don noe how to treat you better at the same time let you know you have made some mistakes by not scolding you.
Or maybe i really don noe how.
I don noe how to give one's confidence in me.
I don noe how to give one's to be secure in me.
Or should i sae i don noe how to be one's good gf.

Things got tougher now, idk can be get over wif this barrier.
You re still not wif me.

My thoughts : Memories are being carved in ones heart, this applies to scars too.

Im sorry.

2009-04-05T22:21:00.002+08:00

Ok! Things isnt going very well for both of us.
I already said what suppose to say. Hopefully you will understand what i'm trying to say.
Ok, i believe i have change, i hope you know that you changed too. Everyone changes, but it seems that you couldnt accept facts.
Dont blame on others over the things that happen to us. It's nothing to do with others. It's our own problem and i hope that there's solution for it. Stop blaming on others.
Try to know what's going on. Pls.
And i still couldnt understand why cnt u pick up calls when i call you.
Why do u have to let it ring? I called 30 plus times alright, dont tell me you can even feel the vibration.
I really feel very sucky.
Evaluation you are not wif me. Seriously, im very disappointed. Not in you but myself.

2009-04-05T21:44:00.003+08:00

Rite, back to update again! Hmm, what happen during these days?

My darling b’dae party! Was prepared kinda well, her family was huge alright! Very huge! Shocked eh. HaHa! Sorry bibi, I know I keep shouting at you, maybe im too angry of you, which I don’t know why. But after that, everything went well rite? Hope you enjoy! =) Got the best cake for her which resemble like her, sexy hur? Hahaha! Like or not? And of cus, her customized bolster, which got her photo on it! Cute rite? Was suppose to ton until the next morning, guess who slept 1st? Of cus my baby darling! She cannot overnight one lor, don’t know why, able to work midnight, but cannot ton. Weird hur? Yeah, that’s her.

Anw, daddy got me an ipod classic!!!! Hahahah! Happy la. A swatch watch change to an ipod classic, worthy or not? Hhaha! Never mind, I shall get the watch myself! =)

Oh yeah, raja’s b’dae coming soon! So for my pay day! Last payday before school reopen, sianess! I still don’t know which class I belong to. LOL!

Hmm….all these suppose to post long ago! Opps~

ME!

2009-03-16T15:40:00.005+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I feel it’s kinda true? Hahah! Try it out urself! =)
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Baby Love

2009-03-15T00:48:00.001+08:00

Yeah man! My Liverpool won Man U, 4-1! Dear baby, you lost! I got extra 10 bucks from honey! Told you honey, my Liverpool will not lose to your Man U one. Cause Man U is lousy! Ha! See la! Liverpool the strongest of all….Baby, admit your defeat to me man! Tsk!

My little baby girl working now and here am I at home using lappy whole day and playing games with my cousin. Does this consider rotting at home? Anyway, I think I’m being a good girl today because I didn’t any how go out with others, just staying at home for the whole day! Hehehe! Wait for you to finish work! 30 more mins to go honey! Go home must rest well alright?

Hmm..left one more week to go to baby’s b’dae party! I guess she’s very very very nervous and excited now? Hmm, baby happy or not? I hope you are. Because I really want to be happy. If you are not, I will also be not happy.

I miss my little fatty cute baby!

Happy 10th mth!

2009-03-14T16:58:00.001+08:00

I have not been blog since a month ago. It’s been long. Reason because lazy and busy. Ha! So don blame me. Promise my baby I have to blog soon, so here am i.

A lot of things happen in this month, pervious those entries that posted on my blog, guess it will stay there forever to remind me of mistakes that I made. I really have a wonderful gf! And I would only have one now! No one would be able to replace her in emotionally and physically terms. Baby, I really just need you and no one else. I will change, believe in me. Time will tell everything, right? Like you say I have to prove to you by action in everything and not just talking. I will, as long as u still loves me.

Right, let talk about things which are like one month ago, which I promise my baby darling that I will blog about it.

14th February, Valentine day.
Went out with my baby darling of cause. But the day before, I got 3 surprises lining up for her. Ha! 1st, went to outlet without letting her know, she was surprise cause I told her I can’t meet her early or wait for her until she finish work. I bought her the heart shape famous amos cookies. We went for dinner together then I send her back to work. After that I met sarah, go shopping, of cause is buy present la! Ha! I don’t know how to choose a girl’s present, so ask sarah for help. Ha! Thanks anyway. Got some red red stuff for my baby! Went back to ofc to wait for her, sit at there slacking and all. Ha! After work, we took a bus back home, sarah walked separate ways. I keep asking baby to open the present, because I want her to wear it the next day. I keep scaring her that careful, might have tortoise. Ha! So cute. When she open, she shouted,EXPECTED! Hahahah! She will know what I gave her. ACTUAL DAY, we went to sentosa! Hahhaha! Damn fun and interesting lor. Both of us enjoyed it a lot, took almost 100 photos. Ha! Both also cam whores mah. So cannot blame. Will update those photos for more information.

Around on the 4 or 5, I guess? All of the ex-ofc staff all went to HV’s coffee club to eat, azman and Rashid joined us too, celebrating iskandar’s birthday. Damn fun pls! a lot of people. All of us were like crazy like that, make a lot of noise, disturb until the other customers also. Opps! Took a lot of photos too. Baby girl very naughty, keep making me jealous, she will know why! Hmmp! After dinner, went to town to catch a midnight movie. Nice, but very bloody. Me and baby enjoy it too, right honey? After that, we caught a cab home, cause I was really really very tired. Ha! Go home, poke, sleep.

Hmm….Blog sth about recent things. 300 days with my baby girl just pass. WE went to jurong point to play iceing cake, it is what she wants though. Very fun! I guess she enjoyed it a lot, she play with those cream, look so cute, like a kiddy like that. Ha! My baby girl very cute! And I love her a lot!

Went to sentosa ytd with my aunt and cousin. Play the cineblast and the shootout game. Damn interesting. Shall bring my baby girl go next time. =) I guess she will enjoy it a lot. After sentosa, went to marche at vivocity. Damn long queue pls. Haish! Wait until my stomach growling. =( The food there not bad, shall bring my baby go also. Anyway, there doesn’t have service charge, they only charge GST, not bad eh? Baby working now, and I blogging! Hmm….I miss my baby girl a lot a lot a lot !!!!! Shall give her some surprises!

I WANT TO GET MY BTT BY 22nd April!

2009-02-14T23:57:00.003+08:00

Here I am! At J.CO café. Slacking, I guess?

At times, it’s kinda good to go shopping alone and sit at the café with a donut together with a coffee. Relaxing, the same time can calm ones down. It’s good for one’s body I guess? Rather than going to club every night or going out with friends all day, isn’t it? Drink coffee, eating donuts and reading book. =) Can consider being an entertainment? To me only, I guess?
Hmm…Went to get some clothes and pants! Cool yeah? Just only cost me 30 bucks for two shirts and one pant. Got a watch for myself too, reason because my current watch that my sister got for me is very stinky now. Haish! Because of working in bar, that why it stinks. Stupid! But I still like that stinky watch, because it’s cute and it’s my birthday present from my sister which is naughty pet, that’s the brand name.

Tomorrow will be valentine day. I wonder why it is on the 14th; ask a lot of people, but none of them can give me the answer. Anyway, yeah. Of cause must celebrate still. Ha! Reason because there’s some one asks me out for a date at sentosa. She’s a good valentine. But it’s a vice versa for me, cause I’m not a good one. This week isn’t a pleasant week at all. Lots of tears drop, lots of fights, lots of injury cause, lots of lies. And yeah, I’m the one who cause all this. My valentine keep giving my chances and chances, but I keep taking advantages of it, cause her to drop those tears that isn’t suppose to be, cause her to have those scars that not suppose to be at there. I cannot say that I regret every thing that I done to her, as things already had past, no point of regretting, it doesn’t help both parties.

Still the last chance and I destroy it with my own hands. I know I’m going to lose her. But still she stay on, gave me her hands. I’m serious stupid and dumb, the biggest fool of all. I really couldn’t bear to. I cried too. The first time that I really tear. Tear because I’m stupid, tear because I don’t know how to treasure, tear because I hurt her, tear because she gave me back her hands. She’s really a very good valentine, she know that everything that I done which will cause her to get hurt, she kept quiet, not letting me know.

A sorry is unable to cover all the wounds that I had made in her heart. Promises really cannot be made. Actions will have to prove it all. Hopefully I’m able to do it.

Thanks for all your love that you had put on me.
Thanks for all the hope that you had pinned on.
Thanks for the miracle.

Happy Valentine Day.

2009-02-03T01:13:00.021+08:00

My b'dae

Yeah rite.

Last day of school!

Pretty baby in cab!

Xiao yang! Baby!

The tunnel.

Emo!

The rose thats being made for u.

My baby!

Moody!

Good feast!

Dimple!!!

Handicapped day! =(

My thoughts : Look at My GF! She's the Only One I got!

2009-01-22T10:47:00.013+08:00

David Cook
Always Be My Baby

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be a part of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

2009-01-21T22:06:00.001+08:00

Ok! Back from MIA-ing! Ha!

Want to verify some things. People’s minds are really complicated. Why do I say so? Cause simply they’re ignorant or should say trying to avoid the fact? Or thinks that she/he is so wonderful that she/he doesn’t make any mistakes?

There are nice people living in this planet, the same time as hypocrites. I don’t know whether she/he will read my blog. But what I know is just hypocrites are breathing the same air as me and I felt so ashamed of it. Let me see, why should kids living in Singapore should receive educations? To be educated, to be able to serve the nation or contribute to the country, am I right? But is it so, that such an educated person would have such a childish act? Although my mother is not very educated, but she taught me some things, she said heaven will be watching wherever we are and whatever we do. That’s why there’s word call retribution.

Not other than that, mama said that if ones able to control everything, he/she will be the greatest person on earth. I don’t understand why he/she likes to invade others space by not knowing facts and claim he/she is right to say that. Does it make him/her happier?

Please, get a life of your own. Everything has past. Stop living in the memories. Still pondering why things turn out like this? Why not find a method to solve everything?

You blame others for leaving you. But have you wonder what had happen? Your own mistake or it is really others? Admit it. If still insist that you are right, I got nothing to say any more. But what I can say is, stop living in denial.

And stop criticizing others; you are not a perfect person. You would only just push the blames and saying claims that’s not the fact. Blame innocent party without any evidence, how funny can this be? Even police caught thief also needs evidence, in order to put them into jail. If no evidence is found, they will just shut their mouth and release them. So if until now, u haven found any evidence that my GF had did all those stuff in the past, u better shut your trap up and let go of her. Stop invading her space. You got no right to do so. STALKER! Have you ever try to sort things out? Or you should find some other things else to do?

I don’t care how wonderful is your brother. But what I know that you are ignorant on what’s going on. Sad for you. Your own brother doesn’t even tell you the truth. And you’re here claiming that how good is he, how honest is he, how a great lover is he, and how much he didn’t hurt his ex, which is my current GF so much until she had give up. She tries to bear with it, but how much can this go? If your own BF cheats on you, can you tolerate? I doubt so.

I admit that I’m not good partner for her, because I had cheated on her, not only once. But I realize my mistakes and willing to change. If not, I will lose a wonderful person that I had never had. I cannot deny that I cannot live without her. She gave me my light. She is the one I can't live without, the one I want to see everyday, the one I can't get enough of, the one I want and love so much. She is the first thing I think of in the morning and the last thing on my mind before I sleep.

Yes, we’re lesbian. So what? Don’t you know that there are countries available for gays and lesbians to get married? Love doesn’t consist of gender and age. Having a guy with you, do you think that you’re very lucky? Come on, face the fact. Once they fuck you, they will throw you away, because to them you’re not fresh anymore. They don’t want you anymore.

So what if we’re lesbians? We dare to admit, we unlike some other hypocrites that unwilling to admit their own mistakes that they had made, whereby they push it to innocent party and made them suffer. Me and daya are living very good now. I believe that our love will stand strong compared to yours. And by the way, both of her parents know about me. They were happy for daya that she is happier compared to the past. She lives better compared to the past, why can’t you to be happy for her? Get a life of yours please. She doesn’t need such a friend. She had enough.

Your brother is a fool to let such a wonderful girl off. I guess I have to thank your brother instead. For letting her go, if not, I will not be able to have her to be in my life.

2009-01-02T10:33:00.000+08:00

Will It go?

Sorry

2009-01-02T10:31:00.001+08:00

Why did things turn out to be that way?
I know I’m wrong that I lied. But why? It’s because I don’t want you anyhow think. You know yourself, once there’s someone text me, you will keep questioning.
I know you got the right. But there’s some privacy for me right?
You can claim until so easy to leave me. Or you already had plans for other things?
I don’t know. I don’t know how to think rationally now. My mind now just full of craps.
Everything just craps! This happen when my birthday is just around the corner.
I told u it’s a misunderstanding. But you refuse to listen. I mean texting a friend is it also wrong?
You text Wan too. You talk with kydd.
I mean cnt I do those stuff? Cnt I talk to my own friends?
Besides, there’s nth between me and her.
I just ask to see you once and you said that you’re unwell. Or it’s like you doesn’t want to see me at all?
Do you know I seldom contact or should say rarely contact with my female friends when I’m with you? Why? Because I know you’re very sensitive towards all these stuff, that’s why I stop.
You know I dislike kydd. But you wanted to meet him, I didn’t stop you. I still ask you go meet him. Same for F1 or so.
I seriously don’t know what to do now for you.
My heart is just aching. I know yours too.
I’m sorry.

2008-12-28T04:32:00.003+08:00

Hmm…Some updates for these days

24th dec
Woots! The longest I have worked now! 17hours!!!
I break my previous record! Extra one hour! Hahaha! Cool man! Some more double pay! =)
Money money money! =)
Nvm. Worthy! Not tired! Cus able to countdown with baby! <3
Lol! She was doing cashiering, demand a kiss in front of a lot of customer ok~ LOL!
Hahha! Overall spending Christmas at ofc wasn’t very fun. But still consider spend it with my baby! =)

25th dec
Went to collect log cake for my aunt. Send it. Then went down to town together with baby.
Dinner at deliverance, suppose to be my treat but it turn out hers.
After that went home. Kind of boring right? But not to me. <3

26th dec
1st day of sushi tei. Scare late, so went out kind of early.
Change my shoes. Cut my hair. P.s. – Super short pls! And my side burn all gone. I look like a little boy now. =( Not cute anymore.
Hmm…1st day of work. – not really that tough actually.
The manager was very friendly. He talks a lot of craps.
Hmm….Got some advices from him. Listen and forget. LAF!
Ha! After sushi tei, went back ofc to work.
Was suppose to work until 7am. But I cannot take it, so request to leave early.
Went back with terry. Ha! Cause he lives at woodlands and he rides bike! =)

27th dec
Hmm….2nd day of work at sushi tei.
Now I know what kind of person can be trusted and which not.
Never judge a book by its cover. Must remember this sentence all the time.
And another word! LAF!
After that went to ofc again! Finish at 3am. Went back wif terry also.
Tml the same routine again! How I wish I can see baby more often~
Gonna slp!

2008-12-23T22:52:00.004+08:00

My Pretty Baby!

Baby

2008-12-22T02:20:00.000+08:00

Heheh! Sorry baby. Recently I have been busy with my hongkong drama.
Sorry, very very sorry for neglecting you these days.
But nevertheless, I managed to go down to see you perform!!!!
Hahahhahah! Pretty la! Baby is so so so pretty on that night. Sorry, we didn’t manage to go prawning~
We go next time ok ? Promise!
Baby, I really miss you a lot.
Finally, I have someone to spend Christmas with me this year. =)
The first time! And I guess she hope it will be the last.
Haha! Correct? I know what you’re thinking.
=( not happy now, baby working. Supposedly to work only 4 hrs.
But now, u still working. =( Midnight sum more.
Nvm, tml we will go have dinner together but not just both of us.
Lol! Go collect the loggy cake 1st k? =)
Hopefully tml nth happen ~
Babies loves.

My thoughts : This Chirstmas I gave You My Heart

My baby You

2008-12-14T22:48:00.003+08:00

Baby, this is for you. <3

After this entire struggle, I’m glad we made it through.
Hmm..I believe this may not end. But you will still stay by my side right?
I will! Even you don’t want me anymore; I will still continue to be by your side. Hehe!
And I’m really happy we got until here. 7th month and still counting! Haha!
After the talk, I feel better.
During the past, you got your wan, alfi,kydd and so.
And I got my mich, angel, vivan or what so ever.
But now! That’s the most critical moment.
I’ve got you. And you’ve got me.
That’s enough for me. I hope this applies to you too.
You believe that you will change me. I believe it too. At least I’m not as gatal as before. Don’t I?
Maybe that’s what they say. Love can be a miracle too?
Since you know what the problem with yourself is, I believe you will try to change too.
Not to be so sensitive? Not to be so protective? Not to be so pamper (though I pamper you a lot) Not to be so naughty and playful to others? Not to be so touchy!!!
Haish! Haha!
Is it correct?
You change my life. You change me. You change my everything. And you are not suppose to leave me. Cause I’m already yours. =)
If you leave me, I don’t know how my life would be. Guess everything will go haywire.
You still want to spend Christmas with me right?
But I still want to spend new year with you, as goes for my birthday, Chinese new year, valentine day, your birthday, youth day, children’s’ day, hari raya and Christmas again!

Every single day to be with you only.

JUST ONLY YOU! NUR HIDAYAH BTE MOHD YUSOFF!

My thoughts :
All I Want For Christmas Is YOU!

2008-12-11T21:34:00.002+08:00

Where re you baby ?
Im really worried.
I cnt reach you neither nor your family members.
Your phone is off reason due to batt flat.
But where re you?
Can you return me a call?
I beg for it.
Im sorry for things that i said.
I know it's hurtful.
Im sorry.
Baby, i really need you.
Im totally addicted to you. A drug addict whom addicted to drug, if one day without it, they will die.
If i lose u for one day, i will be totally crazy.
Baby, pls respond to me alright?
At least let me know that you are safe.
Imy.

Sad

2008-12-11T14:59:00.004+08:00

雨淋湿了天空
毁得很讲究
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默悔得很冲动
就算这是做错
也只是怕错过
在一起叫梦
分开了叫痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果
我能承受这
最后的出口在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里
你不用害怕失眠
哦
如果你想忘记我也能失忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪让它留在雨天
哦
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

你说我不该不该不该
在这时候说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎力气
哦
请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
我只有一天的回忆

My thoughts : Is it really time to say goodbye??

OFC

2008-12-08T04:16:00.000+08:00

Hmm…Just finish work! =)
My operation manager, Adrian foo sent me hm. Hahah!
Though his car ish quite small, but nvm. Tsk!
We chat a lot, hmm…like his history and future “OFC”…dots~ No point
Anw, I declared today ish my last day with OFC.
Forget it, no mood working there anymore. Very tired, call me weak, call me whatever you want, im not staying at there anymore.
However, baby going to stay at there. So let it be then.
And one more thing to add on! I quarreled with the supervisor that transfers from rp!
Hahah! Ridiculous. Just stupid! Retard…
Don care la. I just don wanna work anymore. Kelvin asked me to stay, I try to say no, but still failed.
Talk to Adrian just now, say no…..Still he sae cannot quit. WTF rite?
Haish! Watever la. Put the entire schedule for me all u wan la!
Im NOT going to work in ofc anymore!
Ok..time to orh orh.
Still have to go to baby hse ltr for haji. =)
Eat eat , yummy!
Gonna bring her sissy buy bag. LOL!
SLP!!!!

My thoughts : Correct mindset!

2008-12-01T14:05:00.001+08:00

I cry silently.
I cry inside of me.
I cry hopelessly.

I don wish things to be like this. I don wan another fight again.
Teach me? Anyone?

2008-11-29T00:36:00.000+08:00

Baby edited for me! =)

Omg pls!
Was working just now, guess who I saw?
The acid crue guy! Damn cool la pls! Hhahaha! I adore him a lot pls.
Just that I don dare to modify my body until like him like that.
Hahhaha! I was a bit biased…Hahha! Apparently, there’s a lot of tables waiting for smoking area. But I don care, I just give him the table. Erm…ok~ I know is wrong!
But he ish my idol!!! Hahha! And he keep beg me for a smoking table.
So…I couldn’t bear to see him wait! Hahahha! Ok~
He’s everything is so freaking cool la!
And baby! It’s very painful now. And it keep bleeding sia! Scared scared.

2008-11-22T04:43:00.000+08:00

Ok~ now ish 4am. Ha! Why aren’t I sleeping?
Reason one, I just came back from work~
Reason two, I can’t sleep.
Reason three; I have to do my reflection journal.
Reason four; I have to blog for the sake of blogging. Hahaha!
Hmm….I was wondering about something these days.
Something that has never gone through my mind.
What is life really meant to me?
Is it just living in this world in order to live? As like living for the sake of it.
I don’t get it.
Why do ones’ be living in this world?
It is full of polluted air and all sorts of things which are unseen.
It can never be fair or justice existing.
Life ish just so sad.

My thoughts : Life? What went through your mind?

2008-11-20T00:25:00.013+08:00

Baby bought for me- Addias Hoodie

PussyFoot

Chilling

Ok! I know i look very cartoon! So unglam!Nope, im not smoking...

Aww...very sweet hur? YESH!

Xpresson baby pork ribs

Enjoying

MY PRESENT !!!

Crystal jade

Baby keeps asking me to update my blog. So I just do as her wish. =) *willingly*
Hmm…A blink of eye, 6 months passes. I spent 6 months with her already.
The longest girlfriend I ever had, I will treasure this. <3
Cause I’m relying on her too much. My food, my drinks, whenever I’m sick, whenever I’m bored or whatever so, she will be by my side. Haha! I’m sooooo lucky la.
Went to clark quay to have dinner. I tried their new dish. Xpresso baby pork ribs. Nice! But cannot finish, because the portion is too big for me. Baby ate pri pri chicken and drank 2 iced earl vanillas, she’s a freak for that. LOL!
Hmm…then EXCHANGING PRESENT TIME! Tada! I tot she din bought anything for me again. So din really put high hopes. But who knows? OMG pls! Im so freaking surprise la! Cus at first, she asked me to kiss her. Then after that, the coffee club manager put the box on the table. Then baby asked me to open, OMG AGAIN CN!!! HAHAH!!!! MY HOODIE AND DAVID BECKHAM PERFUME! WAHAHAHA!
I’m freaking happy pls. Of cus, I did sth too. Made a very special video for her. Which made both of us laugh! Hahaha! Only we know! =))
I really like the present a lot. It really shocked me please. Hahhaha!
Thanks baby!
Went to suntec to meet shahid then after that head back to clark quay to chill.
I drank cocktail and baby drank some pussyfoot mocktail! Hahah!
Her pussyfoot.
I love that 151108 night the most man! Wahaha!
Most importantly ish the person whom spend the night with me.

150508

2008-11-06T15:16:00.006+08:00

I already said that there’s nth between me and her, she’s not another mich, neither are we in a mess.
Having a conversation like this result your unhappiness, I could only say sorry.
Since you don’t like me to talk to others this manner, I wouldn’t do it. But I did not talk like this to her only, alright?
All I could say this is me.
Misunderstanding occur.
I told you that she knows that I’m attached, she’s attached too.
So is not possible for me and her get together.
You’re not imperfect; it’s just that very imaginative and feels very insecure right? But in the same time, this doesn’t give you the right to check my laptop. That’s over limit. You like to check my phone, check my wallet; I’m fine with it, because my mother did that. But now is my laptop, that’s too much.
After I told you there’s nothing about it.
But you chose not to believe me; I can’t do anything about it anymore.
After mich, I learnt my lesson and never dare to do anything again. I wouldn’t want to hurt my love one again and again.
Do you think if you cry or sad, I would be happy?
No!
You wouldn’t want this 5mth which coming to 6th month to come to the end right?

You’re my longest gf I ever had. I wouldn’t want to lose you.
I already put everything in, quarrel with my parents over you, just to be with you.
I know who the one that treat me good is.
I know who will always be with me whenever I’m sad over certain things.
I know who will be by my side whenever I’m sick, knows how to take care of me.
I know who I really love and care for.
My one and only irreplaceable girl, Nur hidayah bte mohd yusoff.
I’m really happy and glad to have you, like your friends say that I’m the lucky one.
These 5 months we have been through, shouldn’t go in vain.
All the ups and downs shouldn’t go in vain.
We walk so far with our hands holding tight, I chose not to let go, but you? Will you let my hand go?
I know you try your best to be my good gf. I’m aware of every single bits of thing you do; it does just want me to be happy.
I’m really happy to spend every moment with you, I don’t wish to end it just like this.
I know after mich thing, it makes you even insecure, that’s explains why you want to check my laptop and all, am I right?
You’re right, we should work things out. But what I have to say, I already say.
Choose to believe me or not, it’s up to you to decide.
Just want you to know, you’re the only one I really love, from the beginning from 150508.
No one else able to replace the position in my heart.

You Know How Life Can Be.
It Changes Over Night!
The Sun Even Rainin' But It's Alright!
A Friend Like You,Always Makes It Easy!
I Know That You Get Me.Everytime!
Through Every up, through every down!
No Matter Where Life Takes Us, Nothing Can Break Us Apart!
You Know Its True,
I Just Wanna Be With You..Just Be With You..
Oh, Yeah, Yeah..
All I Wanna Do, Is Be With You, Be With You!
There's Nothing We Can't Do, Just Wanna Be With You, Only You!
No Matter Where Life Takes Us, Nothing Can Break Us Apart!
You Know Its True,
I Just Wanna Be With You..
I Just Wanna Be With You...

The coffin

2008-11-04T20:57:00.000+08:00

Hmm…yesterday went to watch movie with my baby. =)
The coffin! Shit man! I’m freaking scared can! I admit I’m a coward. =(
Got the couple seats. Nice! Got a lot of space! Haha!
Naughty baby, keep making me scared. =( Then at there keep laughing at me. =( Even sad.
Before movie, wanted to go orchard to eat pepper lunch, baby’s favourite.
However we don’t have much time after we enter the train station, guess what we did.
We went out of the train station and went to RH’s coffee club.
How cute rite?
Ate chicken wings, calamari and beef daube. =)
Too much, cnt manage to finish it.
After that movie!
After movie, went to gramophone to get HSM3 soundtrack!
Guess what, I’ve got 10% off! Haha! And HSM’s bandana!
Freaking cool please!
Went hm. =)
Then after that dinner time, went with my mama! =)
Saw a cheena lady talk on the phone with loudspeaker on.
Freaking funny lor, she’s like cursing the phone! Hahha!
I copy her actions, and then let mama see. Both of us were playing around with the phone! Haha!
Imitate the cheena!
Wahha! Stupid cheena!
Today!!! STEAMBOAT!!! COOL!!!

My thoughts : What's Wrong?

Sentosa with e37j

2008-10-30T14:09:00.000+08:00

Woo! It’s been a week since I last updated.
Benn busy hanging around with baby and friends! Ha! Quality time being spent~ =)
Hmm. Mid night movie! HSM3! So freaking nice la! I swear the 10 bucks is worthy!
For more details, go to NANA’s blog! Haha! A lot of things happen! I’m sure u will laugh out of your head! Hahaha!
Anyway, yesterday went to sentosa with whole bunch of e37j monkeys!
Although not all of them came, I still feel appreciated. It’s quite successful though! =)
Have a lot of fun! I hope my baby do… =)
She scarified her sleeping time to go with me… Cause I force her to. Sorry!
Went bath after some fun! Freak alright! I’ve sunburn!!!! =((((
And it’s freaking shitty pain! Have difficulty wearing my shirt! =(((
When I move a both of my arms up, my back is freaking PAIN!
Baby caught a photo of my obvious sun burn photo! =(
PAIN! Apply lotion, even worse! Hot until like shit!
Hmmm….Wonder why my baby haven’t text me yet. Guess she’s still sleeping.
Baby pig evolved! Hahaha!
Anyway happy 3rd mth anni to both of my fredy and carboy! Hahah!

My love

2008-10-22T23:14:00.002+08:00

Went to watch movie with my baby today! =)
I always like to see her in the theater. Ha! Don’t ask me why.
Cause it’s just so nice. =) It’s for me to know, and for you all to find out, or for her to find out. Ha!
My baby tazy is waiting… However how long can he wait, I don’t know. Best is as soon as you can visit him. He will be very happy.
After seeing the letter you wrote, thoughts crossed my mind.
It shouldn’t be in this way. Idk.
Just don’t seem to have a good feeling.

I thought you loved me undesirably
Didn't you know you were my everything?
You were all I thought about.
In my mind there was no doubt.
My love for you will never go away.
But to tell you that I would never say

For this, it will not be gone. It will stay even you given up on it.
It will be so hard to let it go even I have to.
Maybe I’m the one who think too much, stop me then. Use your usual tender voice and let me know.
I just really don’t know what to do.

Each night I pray for you as I lay me down to rest,
I ask God to keep you safe and give you all the best.
I pray that you remain grounded and hold on to your faith,
For God has great things in store for those who patiently wait.
I hope you are joyful and strong, compassionate and sincere,
I hope you believe in love and are able to love without fear.
I pray that you pray the same for me and my existence you do not fret,
I pray this for you, my current companion.
When I ask you how you got his number, you claim that you don’t know, in fact you could recognize his number. Idk. Maybe it’s me who think too much, if it’s so, stop me. Try to convince me.
My thoughts : Poems~

2008-10-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

Went to watch movie with my baby yesterday. =)
“The Magic”
Hugging all the way. *Sweetest Moment*
However everything just crops up.
I’m sad, very upset and very disappointed.
What’s wrong exactly?
You don’t like me to get close with other girls, I can do it.
But can you?
My Thoughts : Just so stupid....

Pics

2008-10-19T04:40:00.007+08:00

Baby's sis Step only
Me!

Clark quay, <3

Baby posing behide
She's ish mine!

Smile!

Im hers.
My CUTE LITTLE NAUGTHY COUSIN

My baby's growing stage! haha! Enjoy!

That's how she look now..Pretty rite? haha!

Happy bird day papa!

2008-10-16T20:11:00.002+08:00

Ish my papa's bird day! Ha! Same to my 5th mth anni with my sweetheart. <3
1 whole week celebration with sweetheart. Ha!
I guess both of us ish getting rounder.

And it’s not a very good sign. Ha! Fat baby!
Indeed this month is totally different from the rest.
What I told you yesterday, it doesn’t mean that you are wrong to control me.
I don’t want your sorry. You didn’t did anything wrong.
I’m willing to have you by my side, it’s more than enough.
Don’t get wrong, I don’t feel that you got any faults in anywhere.
It should be me. If I have behaved myself, this will not happen, this will not occur.
I’m the one should apologize. Not you.
I’m really grateful to have you still carry on staying by my side.
Seriously, you’re a great girlfriend I had ever had.
I’m really touched when I read your letter.
The same time, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean that way.
You know that I don’t like you to say sorry to me whenever there’s nothing wrong.
I should be the one in fault, I’m the one who created the mess and result all these.
Do you know you play a very big part in my life?
You’re the key person in my current life.
Every moment that I spent with you is unforgettable.
I love you and really do.

Truly Madly Deeply. <3

5th mth anni

2008-10-14T23:04:00.001+08:00

The 5th month that we've been through. =)
I guess i have said everything.
And i really do mean it.
Hope u like everything i have for you~ =)
Hope that you are really happy.
Thanks for your everything.
I really enjoy the company of yours.
The feeling you gave is wonderful, how i wish it will just stay put there.
=)
P.S. ILU

LINA

2008-09-27T01:18:00.000+08:00

Ok! Here I am in the library.
Not a very good student yeah. Ha! Went off halfway, reason is too tired.
My eyes were in pain. Guess I did too much things with my laptop these days.
While coming to school time, suddenly my mp4 change the song to one of my favorite, one of Lina’s favorite too.
Haish! It’s already been 5 mths since she last contact me. =(
Suddenly tear inside train, damn stupid alright.
Haish…Remember of the times that spent wif her and bumble bee.
Recalling why bumble bee call bumble bee. Ha! Very funny lor! Kinda stupid too.
Remember that the 1st time he pick up lina after work, both of them was wearing yellow, so I named them bumble bee. Ha! One big bumble bee, another one will be small bumble bee. Hahaha! Bleah.
However now, I will never ever see them again, or be together anymore.
Sometimes, I wonder is she at the other side of where I am.
Does she know I keep waiting for her to come back?
Does she know I’m waiting for her email or a call?
Does she even know that I miss her a lot?
She is just like a sister to me.
Haish~ However, I don’t think she will ever know that I really miss her a lot.
The only thing I have is her pictures and the song to keep me not to think so much.
For a lady alone to stay out for so long isn’t easy, I believe other me, the rest of us have always worried how is she living out there.
Is she really happy compared to last time?
Is she really contented with what she’s having now?
Will she keep the smile at her face all the time?
She’s the 1st one who rides me on a scrambler.
I’m the 1st one who wore her new helmet.
She’s the 1st one who scolded me, which by I don’t feel angry at all.
She’s the 1st one who knows what kind of person whom I really am.
She’s the 1st one who knows what sorts of dreams I will have.
She’s the 1st one whom I will really treasure.
She’s the 1st one whom I will really miss.
She’s the 1st one who really teach me.
I miss her laughter.
I miss her evil smile.
I miss her act fierce look.
I miss her act cute face.
I miss her nagging.
I miss her voice.
I miss her shouting.
I miss her for calling me little bee.
I miss her for squeezing my head.
I miss her for squeezing my cheeks.
I miss her strictness.
I miss her scolding.
I miss her bumble bee.
I miss the way she lecture me.
I miss her free rides, even I have to pay, and I’m willing to.
But it will never happen again.
I miss her little red bag.
I miss her everything.
I MISS YOU.
Come back soon will you?
All of us miss you.
We will always be waiting.
Love, Bing.

Baby's song

2008-09-23T20:59:00.003+08:00

用我的晚安陪你吃早餐
Yong wo de wan an pei ni chi chao chan
I spent the night with breakfast
记得把想念存进扑满
Ji de ba xiang ni chun jin pu man
You remember to miss deposited in the piggybank
我望着满天星在闪
Wo wang zhe man tian xing zai shan
Looked at a sky full of stars flash
听牛郎对织女说要勇敢
Ting niu lan dui zhi nu shuo yao yong gan
Listen to the Cowboy Girl brave
别怕我们在地球的两端
Bei pa wo men zai di qiu de liang duan
Do not be afraid to say that we look at the two ends of the earth's greetings
看我的问候骑着魔毯飞
Kan wo de wen hou qi zhe mo tan fei
To my magic carpet ride
用光速飞到　
Yong guang shu fei dao
With the speed of light to fly to fly
你面前要你能看到十字星有北极星作伴
Ni mian qian yao ni neng kan dao shi zhi xing you bei ji xing zuo ban
To you before you have to be able to see the stars cross a small company
少了我的手臂当枕头　
Shao le wo de shou bei dan zhen tou
Polaris my arms a pillow
你习不习惯你的望远镜望不到我北半球的孤单
Ni xi bu xi guan ni de wang yuan jin bu dao wo bei ban jiu de gu dan
When you learn you have not used the telescope
太平洋的潮水跟着地球来回旋转
Tai pin yang de chao shui gen zhe di jiu lai hui xuan zhuan
Alone in the northern hemisphere of the Pacific flow back and forth along the Earth's rotation
我会耐心地等随时欢迎你靠岸
Wo hui na xin de dei suay shi huan yin ni kao an
I will be patient, and so I will welcome you at any time landing
少了我的怀抱当暖炉　
Shao le wo de huai bao dan wan lu
A few of my embrace of the heater
你习不习惯
Ni xi bu xi guan
When you are not used to study
E给你照片看不到我北半球的孤单
E gei ni chao pian kan bu dao wo bei ban jiu de gu dan
E to you, I can not see photos of the northern hemisphere alone in the world
世界再大两颗真心就能互相取暖
Shi jie zai da liang ke zhen xin jiu neng hu xiang qui
And then two really big heating
想念不会偷懒　
Xiang nian bu hui tou lan
Will be able to miss each other lazy
我的梦通通给你保管
Wo de meng tong tong gei ni bao guan
I would not dream of keeping all to you

Baby's favourite!
Delicated To Baby daya <3

Pictures~

2008-09-22T23:16:00.006+08:00

Starting with my Choco Delice
Yum yum!
Trying to cover with her wallet
4 crappers
Nana and sufian!

FINISHED BY US!
Me and Baby!
See her wide wide mouth!

After work!

Engrossed with my book! My doggy! AKU CAR!

Me and baby's leg!
Outside national library~
MEMEMMEME!

Sweetness Covered Whole Heart Of Mine

Baby love toy cars
Aronold!

Finally my NOW card ish here !!! Wahahah!!! Cool! =) Went dinner with sufian and Nana! However we decided to go eat ayam petyyet and they wanna eat pizza, so we meet after dinner for dessert. Wannted to go paragon find chef johnny, but went back to ofc instead. Order chcoc delice and mud pie ! <3>

I LOVE MY FATTY PIGGY!

Arnold's Day

2008-09-20T20:06:00.001+08:00

Hmm, just finish eating arnold’s with baby.
Now I’m at national library with baby.
Hmm…national library! Sorry yeah, I’m kind of kuku. Didn’t go before.
Hahaha! Baby was shocked when I mentioned that I didn’t come to national library.
She thought that everything was on my finger tips. Ha!
I’m not as brilliant as she thought. LOL!
Wanted to revise for some work. However went to surf net, read up some articles.
Baby say I’m weird. Like what the hell man, she thinks I’m weird to read up new reports.
She mentions that either she sees me play games or read some irrelevant stuff, always wasting my time only. =(
I feel so useless. =(
Hahah!!!
Another quality time of day gone~ =)
My thoughts : Times pass so fast, feeling grown deeper.

Pictures

2008-09-18T16:05:00.003+08:00

Memememe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Singapore Army Museum
4th mth anni

Thanks for everything you gave. Its undescriable. Totally the peak of everything you can find.

2008-09-14T01:06:00.002+08:00

OMFG! I just came back from work!
Ooo!!! Legs hurts! =(((
*grumpy* Don like!
Anw, its lantern festival! Ha! Got one more person celebrating wif me tis yr!
I wan play candles and fire crackers !!!
Wahaha!!! Ok, im kiddish ! I admit!
Oh yah! Mei mei got a new bag! Damn it!
Her bf got it for her at guess. And guess how much ish it ?
Mother fucker! Its 179 bucks!
Crazy lor! Don noe buy for her so useless tinks for what ! Kns!
Some more he's not working!
*envious*
What will i get for my b'dae??? *wink wink*
Ha!
Anw, tml goin out wif BIBI!!!! =))
For don noe some leadership talk or so ~
So yeah, nvm...
Maybe shall catch a movie ? It has been ages, since we last catch a movie~

Anw, HAPPY B'DAE JIAYI! =D

Bored.

2008-09-07T13:29:00.002+08:00

Hmm...yeah! I just woke up!
3o'clock working....
Wondering have baby woke up ?
Don tink so...Guess that piggy still slping!
wahaha! Snoring all the way~ =)
Nvm....
And and and I've GOT NOUGAT to eat !!!!
Wahahahha!!!! From aust!!!!
Its from my neighbour...
One of my favourite!!!! <3
hmm....tml school start le! =((((((((((((((
BOREDOM!!! Killl it for me pls!
Anw, i talked wif mama over the saf tinky.
What she sae was, as long as im interested ,jus go ahead.
Cus she believed i will suceed in it very well.
But the main thing ish don take my current diploma and the saf together.
She scared i over-stressed myself.
So she ask me to choose one of it.
Nonetheless, she mention i will have brighter future if i go for saf.
So............................................
The decision is still within my own hands~
Haish!

My thoughts : Undecisive

Randoms pictures.

2008-09-07T02:54:00.009+08:00

SOME randommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm PICS!

I Love this two most de la! Cus i look good! =p
Bi edited.

The bad which bibi bought for me!
Shida's b'dae!

Just got my hair cut! =)
Fredy emo!
The pig that my mama bought! She sae it looks like me! =((((((((((((

3 stalkes of it. <3> Picnic!!!
The 6.5 inches of bomb machine?

I managed to climb up there!!! Wee!

yeah, nvr forget to cam whore.
Im the MAN! Wahahha!

Though its blur, but still able to see. They cnt come down!!!! =(

So woman to the rescue!!!!

Tadah! They are saved!
Her standard model posing.
LOL! Making their album.
Holes in the bang!
Looks like it pee from my mouth.

I prepared.
She prepared.
Merlion.
Night view.

Chalet time.

1st choice ! Jim beam best la!
Whole bunch of monkeys!

Bibi edited. Fine, i look fat !

Maybe ?

2008-09-07T02:40:00.003+08:00

Maybe im wrong.
Maybe i din tink abt how u felt.
Maybe i don understand u at all.
Maybe i don care.
Maybe im stupid.
Maybe im just plain dumb.
Maybe i just don noe how to show u that im sincere.
Maybe i just don noe how to be much more humourous to you.
Maybe i don hav enough patience.
Maybe i just don noe how to let you feel secure.
I haven done well enough.

I just wonder...
Do you ever.....

My thoughts : It shouldnt be in this way.

Moody.

2008-09-06T00:58:00.002+08:00

Ok! Today's lesson was fun!
Im started to love science !!! Im insane!!!! Wahahah!!!
Collect pay in 2nd breakout, then go eat pizza wif bibi.
She keep forcing me to eat meat ! Damn! hahah!!!
Naughty! I hit ur butt butt!!! =D
After that cabbed back to school...
Presentation!!! Woo!!! My group best la!
Faci praised my group's presentation was well done, the things i said was valided!
And i ask alot of questions that make a point there !!! Wahahaha!!!
My AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! Heheheh!!!!
Went down town wif bi and kingston!
Walk around, wanna buy a baby taz for my bag, but cnt find ! =(
Went for dinner, only bi eating! Ha! Pig!
I was having a happy meal!!!! I got a small spoon and fork!!!
I wan the lunch box !!!!!! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
After bi go work, me and kingston walked around~
Bought sth for bi!!!! Hahaha!!!
Yellow yellow dirty fellow~~~ U know y ~ =)
Went to toy're'us, we had alot of fun there!
Hahahha!!!! *arbish!!!!
Went to ofc for some teatime! Ha! Lmao!
Give back bi's things! =))))))
Kingston wanna learn dancing !!!! Yesh la!!!!
Finaaly got ppl will accompany me !!!!!
But he wans hip-hop, whereby i wan locking ~ =(
Nvm! Hahhaha!!!!
Anw, im really troubled now! =(
SAF just post me a specialist card whereby im able to use that to buy things !
Like addias 10% off, burger king 10% off, dippin donuts 10% off.
Lol! Haish!
They mentioned that even im have my poly education, im still able to join them.
Like a part time study ? Yeah!
And i need NOT to pay any school fees, whereby im being paid!
1mth - 1k
Every successful sem - extra 1.2k
Starting pay -2k
6 yr contact - 10,000 of gratuity
Receive mthly allowance up to 700 bucks
Annual bonus
Overseas allowance
Hmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO this troubles me alot !
Mummy and daddy have no comment on this, they just told me that which one u enjoyed, just go ahead.
So the point ish, should i stay at Rp or go SAF ?
Or taking two at a time? Which ish like kinda tough.
IM....................................................ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My thoughts : Hi, Im Baby Tan!!!! =p

4 DAYS enteries.

2008-09-04T22:50:00.003+08:00

Ok! Almost a week since i last blogged.
Shall post abt these 4 days...=)

Today, PAYDAY!!! Whahaha!!! Not much ! =( Very little only! =(
Bibi working! =(
Ps : she forgot to bring her pants, need to go back my hse to get my pants for her...Sorry though it's a bit big! =( yah la yah la! slim waist line !!! LOL!
So i get for her ikan penyet. =)
I went to get my mango chiller at gloria jeans! <3>
Then went back to OFC, fcuker ish working today.
Totally don wish to see him in my sight! Damn!
Ate beef daube and mud pie !
Extra things : Calamari rings ! By ah ming to nana!!!
Hahaha!!!
Super filling la! Eat finish alr, don feel like moving..
Like a dumpty! Hahaah!!! =)

3rd of april.
1st day of school! Sucks !
1st - New classmates who don noe hw to tok.
Why did i sae that? reason ish becus when i tok to them, they got no respond !
Kns!
2nd - i do presentation preparation by my own!
Lastly, i left without present anytink. Just throw them everytink.
Don care le.
Fetch bibi from her class.
Then went to catch movie.
We watched 4bia!!!
Damn! Its fcuking scary pls! 4 thai short stories!!!
And becus of the last story, bibi don wish to become air stewardess le!
Hahah!!! reason becus y ? Go watch it urself then! =p

2nd april
I was rotting at hm all day.
Bibi was working 5pm-11pm. So cnt go anywhere. Besides mummy ish off.
We went out to eat crabs and prawns!!!!!
Which ish nice !!!
God damn! Tiger prawns !!! *melt*
Then watch movie for the day.
This ish how i spent my tues.

Monday! 1st of sept!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Eh....actually i forgot what happen on that day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMN!!!
Ok! Im not good at remember things ! So yeah !

NUR HIDAYAH YUSOFF!!!!

PLS!!! MY PICS!!!

THANK YOU!!!

Baabies anni!

2008-08-29T23:20:00.002+08:00

Thats all i've got! waiting for u to send me ! <3

Emoing!

Ha! Today ish our babies anni!!! Woots! So fast! =)
Went to Labrador park with my silly today to celebrate their anni, but it seems like we are celebrating our own things. Ha!
Din manage to have picnic there, reason : Too many pest!!!! DAMN!!!!
But we explore lots of places ? yeah, guess so.
Went to the secret tunnel, dragon tooth gate, the guns areas and all. =)
Hmm…interesting. I din even know tis park exists. Ha! Ok, im a kuku!
Took lots of photo!!! Hahahah!!!
And got a lot of mosquitoes bites!!! Damn it! Got a hard time scratching!
Will have those photos to talk bah. Shall wait for bibi to send me those photos.
So pls bi, don be lazy! Pls send those photos to me! =)
Wanted to go back to vivo to have picnic there instead, but go esplanade.
Hmm….Merlion ! Hahaha!! A very funny one ! =)
Anw, I’ve got a very memorable day.
You are really different. Different from others whom I been with.
Its really surprising that you came out the idea to go park to have picnics rather to dine in a restaurant.
<3

Thanks for everything! Thanks for accompanying me the whole day!

2008-08-28T14:47:00.002+08:00

Oooooo!!!

Tml will be 29th!!!!

Fredy and carboy's anni !!!!

1st mth anni!!! Haahahah!!!! =)

Tml goin out wif my BIBI!!!! =)))

Loves loves loves...

Hahhahaks..

Totally being tied down by her.

Erm...but im willing one, don get the wrong idea.

Hmm, it seems like im alr more or less settling down.

Which ish a good sign i tink ?

I love silly, dummy bibi!!! =)

I tink in this world cant find sum 1 more silly and dummy than her le bah ?

Hahahha!!! Opps ~

*don scold me* =(

MONDAY!!!!! K-box session at xiaoking hse !!!

Hopefully it will be fun fun fun !!!

Wild dude !!! Bring it on man !!! Chill up everytink !!

Hahhaha!!! I tink im alr too high !

Ha! Not on drug, don worry ~ Hehehhe!!

Bibi, u keep saying im not being myself....

nah, not that.....Just abit high !!!

Hahahahha!!! Must get use ok ???

Cnt wait for tml!!!!

Bi, remember to bring them out !!!!

And pls, put them away from cookie monster. That tink ish scary !!!!

Damn it !!!

Wed school reopen le !!!!

Damn it !!! Hate that! Fcuking lazy to get up early in the morning !

Sum more change class le! =(((((

I cnt find sum1 same class as me !!! Even sad!!! =((((

Only the same level and same block !!!!!

Wahahahha!!!! NANA same ! My jessy also same ! =D

hahaha!!!

Sian la!

Fasting mth come le....=(((

Though im not a muslim, but i still get affected.

Should be understandable bah ?

Hmm...Nvm !

Just one mth only !

We been through lots of things alr.

This doesnt consider any problem rite bi ?

Hehehhehe!!! =)

Ring out the bells again.

Like we did when spring began.

Wake me up when September ends.

NO MORE TEMPTATION! Wakakak!

2008-08-27T00:36:00.002+08:00

Hmm...Early morning damn fcuked up!
Idiot black guy! Kns ! Tink u very big ish it, don understand rules and relgulations hur?
Kns! Loser! Keep wanna compete wif me!
Damn it!
As a manager also don understand simple english in the memo ish it ?
Need me to teach u hur ? Useless~
Waste the space of the earth, waste the oxygen that the plants produce, waste water.
Asshole !
nvm~ There will be karma.
Mama sae good ppl all die alr, whereby bad ppl all still living in this world without any harms. How weird cn it be ?
Haish!
Why ish it so much ppl wasting the natural resourses ?
No wonder everytink keep rises~
I really really wish that all those useless ppl will die faster.
Pls don pollute this world.
How sad can this be~
Haish!
Ok~ enough of those.
BIBI!!!!! Ur fasting mth coming le~~
Sian~ TEMPTATION!!!
Hahhaha!!!! A test for u and me hur?
DAMN IT !
Hahahah! What to do....Haish!
And i've got a BUMP On my head!!!
BI, pain pain~ =(
I tink ish that tym that we chat then my head knock untill bar's sharp edge. =(
Sian ~ Wash head also cannot too hard.

2am and the rain is falling

Here we are at the crossroads once again

You're telling me you're so confused

You can't make up your mind

Is this meant to be

You're asking me

But only love can stay

Try again or walk away

But i believe for you and me

The sun will shine one day

So i just play my part

Pray you'll have a change of heart

But i can make you see it through

That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking

Face to face and a thousand miles apart

I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain

If we give enough

If we learn to trust

Yeap its 0nly love can do. I was confused since that tym. Thanks for untie my knot.

Thanks for bearing all my mistakes, my faults and weakness.

Thanks for telling me that loving me ish not weakness but a strength.

I will continue to treasure u and not take advantage of it.

My thoughts : Thats Only Love Can Do

My Silly Dummy Piggy <3

2008-08-24T18:33:00.002+08:00

Happy 100th day~ <3
Hope you like those flowers and choco..
Suprise hur?
But sad tink ish both of us are working, unable to go celebrate.
White - You are just as pure as it.
Pink - Your tender and loving care.
Red -
A few more days will be our babies 1st mth anni!
hahah!! 29th.. <3
Work the whole week without resting~
Tired~ =(
But alright la..Cus bibi was wif me~
Hahaha!!!
Morning shift, afternoon shift, midnight shift. Done all in a week~
LOL!
Drank two doppio in the two midnights, but it seems that doesnt work for me.
Love to see bibi drink doppio.
Ha! Super funny!
And yeah! Like to see me angry rite? Wahaha!!!!
I will show u hw far my angryness will go..Hehehe!!! *wink*
P.s. I LOVE MY BIBI!!!

2008-08-22T11:59:00.006+08:00

MY TRANSEXUAL GF !!!! WAHAHHA!!!! She ask me whether i still wan her if she ish like that~ Hahah! I said No!

She got a wing at her chin and at her head!!!!

She got a wing at her chin!!!!
Tis ish how she sae bye bye

A good Night Kiss~ <3>

Isnt she cute ? Yeah ~ And thats my girl~ =)

Angry face~ Isnt it cute ?? =)))

Act like a retard

Clueless ~

2008-08-21T00:35:00.003+08:00

Its not those questions that i asked means i want a ans from it.
Sum times, i just ask becus idk what should i sae or what should i do?
Yeah, unclear, yeah, clueless.
A wrong feeling that you said i locked u up inside rather than leading u the way.
Im just afraid that i will do the wrong stuff.
Yeah, afraid. A step may lead me to lose u.
Im happy that you said im alr part of your life and I made you smile.
I told you, im not a great gf. If im, I won go wif temptation, which ish wrong.
True ?
If I really done my very best, things won happen.
I really have no idea how to hit the max, where you will be Very very happy abt it, like I want it to be unexplainable.
Yea, I scared to fall, cus I scared to lose. To become a loser. I don wan to be a failure. It takes a lot of courage for me to come up again.
I tink im not fit for it, not worthy, reason ish becus I tink that you are too good.
Ish like, ur gf betrayed you and you still able to stay with her? How many ppl will be able to do that?
Im happy that you said that you removed your fear, and putting hopes on me. And tis made me really very happy. Other than that idk what to sae.
Yeah, I hope its just us. =)
Yeah, it takes two hands to clap.
But this time round ish all mine.
Reason, im too emotional. I should be the one who be controlling it rather letting it controlling me.
Its still my fault, cus I let it affect not only me but you too.
You are an innocent party. I shouldn’t drag you inside.
Im sorry.
No, things ish not hard for me. Its what im suppose to do.
And the last tink, you are not the only one.
I know im abit greedy. But I still wan fredy and carbody to stay by my side. <3
My thoughts : I have to split my heart into 3~ Heheh!

2008-08-20T12:32:00.000+08:00

Left 3 more days to the 1st 100 days le..
Will there be more 100 days?
How abt adding a zero at the back?
Hmm…Or just couldn’t hit up to 100?
Don noe y..Sudden of change in me..
I feel weak inside…Wanna be strong ,but just cnt pick myself up.
Whats the reason?
My confidence had been fading~ Haish~
Whats the reason?
Am I too weak? Destined to be a failure?
You are still slping…Time clock totally different from me now.
Haish~ Tis happens to me before…Just becus of that, everytink was being blown off…
Don wan tis to happen again~
And its stupid…Haish~
What should I do?
What should I do to keep it , to embrace it, to have it ?
You clamied I did everytink, but did I ?
I feel that its not my very best.. But how to achieve the very best?
Idk~ No clue at all…
Haish~
Will this be continue?

My thoughts : Can i request sth special this time round ?

2008-08-20T00:25:00.002+08:00

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

Ish being a scandalious me better or a faithful one better?

When i wanna settle down myself, things happened.

Stop me.

So how should i do when these kind of situation happen?

Calm myself down to observe?

Nah...It's so not me. Im just like tis. Haish~

Too rush, too harsh, no patience.

Yeap, thats my weakest point.

And its part of a reason that i always failed in relationship.

Maybe im just a failure in everytink.

It just doesnt seem working.

Haish ~ Unreasonable ? Maybe ?

Will i fail tis time too ?

Fall into the deep deep pit hole......

If its so, how will i get up again ?

When will i be able to climb up of the hole ?

How long will i take ?

Make it stop,

Make this pounding in my head stop

Fill my lungs with air,

Give me one more day to make your dreams come true

Cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core

You are always my one and only silly~ <3

Last Day~

2008-08-19T09:33:00.006+08:00

Booo~

Pics taken on LAST day of e37j.

2008-08-17T23:17:00.001+08:00

Praises pls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wahahaha!!!
By Jason :

Hi Ah Ping,You are working on the problem during meeting 2. It is impressive that when so many others are playful you are attentive. You are really unpredictable sometimes :)

Hi Dan,I feel that you are like Tasmanian Devil, the one in cartoon cos I haven't seen the real thing before. Reason being sometimes you can have rather wild mood swing, and you can talk really loud in class sometimes :) no offence, just thought that it's quite funny. Tasmanian Devil is exactly that, exciting, fun to watch and full of surprises.

BY paul :

Good points about the 'invisible rules' of the office place. i can see you attempt to add some stuff learnt from previous lessons. You are a smart gal, Ping. One word of advice from my part --- find yourself a good mentor and you will go very far.

By culture faci :

Hi Ping! It's interesting that in other people's RJs, they mentioned your presentation during the lesson on the gate. :-) Shows how much of an impact you have on others.I'm still impressed by your convictions in ideas and thoughts, and your inclination to challenge others' ideas. That strong trait will get you to places in future.Happy holidays, and may you be successful in whatever you choose to undertake!
Wahahahah!!!! Happy ~ =)))
Shows I made good impressions~ Hehehe! Of cus man! Good student sia!
=DDDD
HAPPY!!!!

Anw, ytd im having stomach cramps! Damn it! Baby came down from tampines!!! Hehehe!!! She din tell me lor…Naughty baby! Love her la! Still brought me food! =) But she ate most of it rather giving me to eat. =( So I have to starve until my sissy come back. Anw, thanks for coming down! I LOVE U !!!! =))) Wahhaah!!!

Went to dah dah’s b’dae chalet after work today! =)

Happy birthday dah dah! 18th le, finally can do legal things ! LOL!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAH DAH!!!!!

Webcammin

2008-08-16T15:13:00.007+08:00

Ha!!! Updating web camming photos...
This guy ish nakes pls.! Singing on his own to ask me to see

Kiss who ? Kns!

Tryin to sccaare me..but too bad...

ACT CUTE!

Don noe what she trying to do...

People caught in action!

Hahaha!!! Mr snail aka hamster aka toad!!!!

2008-08-15T22:22:00.002+08:00

Back from chalet! =)
Everytink was fun~ Din go OCH! Cus scared.
Ha! I noe, coward~ And yeah.
1st day, check in wif daya. Gave that bitch a suprise ! Ha! Stupid! =) Im just too smart to give ppl suprises.
Don like drunkards! =( Drink also din call me go...Baddy!
2nd nite! Suprises !!! *wink wink* Sorry that i put wrong no. of it. =(
Thanks for the guys that help out. However, it din turn out very well.
I had become a drunkard on the next day.
Me and kingston~ Two sad clowns...
Finish the whole bottle of chivas...Pure....No mix or whatever.
And the chivas is different from others. Its 16yrs old, rather than 43% of acholic, its more than that. Hahaha!!! Treasure sia~Woots! Shiok!
Actually not really drunk la, just that abit tipsy.. Thats all.
Last day! Check out !
A really great chalet! Fun ! Though sth happen. =(

I just don noe how to react to certain tinks,

forgive me.

I don noe how to sae or do anytink.

Im just dumb!

Not discourage u.

Not don believe u.

I believe everytink.

Just that its too shocking.

Thanks for saying that ure willing to give me the key.

Thanks~

I cry sliently, cry inside of me.

My thoughts : Thanks for sharing. Pls be happy always, i wan see u laugh.

Last day of skool~

2008-08-13T09:32:00.005+08:00

Last day of school~ =((( My bitch ! Baby ! And me ! =D
Silly and Me...
Waiting for silly~
Our babies !!!! =))

Isnt it cute ??? Wahahha!
Kelvin Kor Kor's B'dae - 4th aug~

Spot the difference?

Emo dessert ~
He also emo~ -.-
Trying to hide behide the burger...But he ish too big

Old liao!!!! 23 !!!!! wahahah!!! nah, ish 22~

Obsence~

Last day of skool~ Kinda miss everyone in my class..

Wonderful people with so much fun.

We pon school together to go east coast and play around...

Went school together..Though there's some argues at times, but it brings us nearer to one another.

Guess it will be kinda hard to get everyone to be together again, as we all will go to different classes.

E37J!!! The best class i ever had ! =)

Thanks guys to add happy moments in my memory card. =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BITCH !!!!

I din forget your b'dae la!

Jus got some surprises for u!

Hahaha!!!

Remember me always alright!

Happy me !!!

2008-08-12T00:01:00.002+08:00

Woo!!!
Kinda suprised me~ HA!
Really meet sum1 whom i won be expected...Yeah~ Ok!
Worried, the same time happy and shocked.
Ha! Ok~
Ish it the result u wan ?? Hahahah!!!
Very happy !
Ripcurl bag hur ? Ripcurl singlet? And what more ? Hahahah!!!!
Suprise suprise suprise....
Very suprised and very happy and very unexpected...Hahahah!!!
A mini suprise hur ? LOL!
Nothing more to describe...
Cnt describe anymore.....Hahaha!!!
Don worry...I like it very much....
Love it as i always do...hahah! =)
And i will bring it to chalet ok???
THANKS DEAREST!!!! =D

Oohh This is an S.O.S.

Don't wanna second guess,

This is the bottom line

It's true

I gave my all for you

Have you ?

Thanks baby for the bag...I love it ! U really shock me cn! Ask my bro to help sum more...Hahha!!! Thanks !

I also have sum tink for u....shh!!! HAHAH!!! =p Don please to let u know too early...Hahaha!!!

U cn give me suprises, i cn too~ =) Just don tear...

My thoughts : It just so silly... Be contented